I held my breath as Twon started asking information about our father, the man we had not seen or heard from since we were toddlers. I carefully studied mom's expression as she talked, but her content manner did not change. Usually, Twon and I did not inquire anything about our biological father, as we did not know how mom would react. But Twon needed the information now, for he was filling out his mission papers. We were having a hard time, for we did not know what his phone number was and such.
I suggested that he may still be living in Idaho, at Weiser. So Twon looked up his full name at IAF.net...and sure enough, there he was. It looked as though he had finally moved out of his father's house, but he was still in the same town. And depending on how 'quick' dad had been after his and mom's divorce, I may have step sisters and brothers perhaps two or three years younger than me.
I don't know...it's just really, really odd to think about. Mom said, a long time ago, that we had the option to go see him. I have a faint curiosity, but I don't know if I would do it. What would I think and feel if I saw myself suddenly facing a new brother and/or sister? How would my dad react to him seeing me, after so many years?
It's just odd, and puzzling. I almost wish I had not been in the computer room when Twon was filling out his online papers. But things happen for a reason, so this is something I will be pondering.
2 comments:
I can only imagine what you must be feeling right not, but I'm here for you, if ever you need to talk about it. The bittersweet emotions running through you must be overwhelming, but confronting such emotion makes one stronger.
Thank you, Mel. I will be sure to talk to you about it, I really will.
It's something I can't ignore any longer, you know? But I'll keep a good attitude about it, no matter what happens. *nod nod*
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