Recovery--Part 5 (last part)

Well, as far as I can tell, my aches from that nasty fall are gone! Woooo! *dances* But just in case, I won't go to the Temple Dedication dance practice tomorrow--my partner has a tendency of gripping too hard, no matter what I say, around my waist and back. I'd rather the pain not be brought back right now.


Today was...better. Hot as all heck, but I swear my indurance level has reached a new height. Hunter was as much as a pest as yesterday, but what can you do? It's anything any other siblings would go through. *nod nod*

Through this trip I've come to see new things...and have come to understand why mom is the way she is now, and why I was raised so...is there a word for it? Not really. But now I truly understand that mom has done the best that she could. Her mother, my grandmother, didn't prepare her kids for raising children and such things...and since my mom was the youngest of seven (or something like that), she was left on her own for a lot of things that aunt Linda had to do her best to guide her through.

It's hard to explain--but the important thing is that I understand a lot better now. My mom is a very good person, even though she has fallen from the church for who knows what, exactly.

I have come to find more of myself as well, which is a good thing, right? But yet, a bad thing...for example: what the heck should I be doing with my life right now? The robot answer is College. *brushes that aside* I know continued education is important, but everyone makes it sound like if I don't go this Fall, I'm some sort of failure and my life will crumble. I don't feel ready yet, and why is that such a bad thing? I will go when I am ready...and I'll be darned if anyone tries to tell me otherwise again.

I'm afraid to move in any one direction right now. I know something is coming, I can feel it...but I know waiting for it isn't the answer. So what should I be doing to meet it at least half way? I'm not sure yet, but I pray and think of it constantly. I'm currently in no rush--the answer will come, and I'll act on it.

I would wright more on what went on today... but to be honest, I'm very tired and it would be a loooong entry. But it was good, despite brief periods of heat-exhaustion.

I drew Hikari, Shini, Hail, Taw and me the other night....>:3 Hehehehe! I can't wait to get them up. ^__^

That's about it...it's nearing midnight, and we are leaving around nine or ten tomorrow morning to get back home.


Overall, this 'Recovery' has been benificial.